Utterly Disappointed In Myself

July 27, 2007

Beware, utterly stupid fangirl-esque post going on... bleh

Okay, Bou has been gone since April 30th, the decision was made before that.
I knew that.
I didn't accept it at first, but I have.

Yet, I'm crying.
Why?
I read all of the members' take on his leave.
I can't comprehend the pain they each felt.
Some more than others, of course,
but Bou's last entries were nothing but "Keep smiling, your support keeps me going" and "Your smile is energizing to me, I cannot wait to see your smiles, I will do my best to reach perfection on that stage" etc....I'm amazed at his courage.
And the members' strength,
they all were a family, and just lost a member.
It hurt them so bad, yet they were so courageous, I'm proud of them.

Why am I crying though? It already happened!

Whatever, I've got to stop wallowing in the past...and embrace the future of my beloved bands!
And my own! CROWNx WILL PREVAIL! Hahaha

Honestly, I actually support Yuuki and Takuya, the poor guys have had nothing but sh*t since they joined. Yes, Yuuki isn't the prettiest thing on the planet, but you shouldn't judge his skill based on that.

Many say Yuuki is not needed, but if you listen to all of their old music, nearly every song has keyboard-music in it, they just didn't have a set one. Now, they do.
Give the guy a chance, okay?

And Takuya, he's been accepted a lot faster than Yuuki, probably because he is cute ^^.
I understand why you may dislike him--he's replacing Bou,
but give him, and Yuuki a break.
They're both like, 19! So young!
Don't crush their dreams just yet!

~-~

I'm stopping now.
Byebye, Nyappy

Mask?

July 23, 2007

maichou ni, okite, okite
Go through routines so familiar, so comforting
sekai e mukou mae ni, "mask" wo kazukete
A mask that shows the world, not who we are, but who they want us to be.
Who "They" are, we never really know.
hibi no reiten wo shikakete-
Walking, riding, learning, teaching, yelling, screaming,
laughing, crying, eating, walking, riding,
Resting. Resting. nemuri.
aru hi, saikuringu ruuchin chuu ni, nanka ga kaeru
dare ka to deatte?someone special, [someone special.]
mata atte? planned this time.
yukkuri mask wo nugou to shite, tokubetsunin wo miseru tame ni
hontou no anta wo. True you
jikan ga tatsu ni tsurete, itami de, mask wo nuide,
mata no wo mitsukete
mata no wo
mata no wo
mask ga kowaretakara, tokubetsunin wo oshinokete
itami de, kowareta mask de, nigedashite.
asa ni, okite, okite
Go through routines so familiar, so comforting
sekai e mukou mae ni, saki no"mask" wo kazukete
kowareta, kudakareta, sloppily fixed
hibi no reiten wo shikakete mite-
Walking, riding, learning, crying, teaching, crying, yelling, screaming
crying, laughing, eating, walking, riding, crying. Resting. Resting.
kurushimeta nemuri.
tokubetsu no hito ga kaette kite,
yougu wo motte, ryouchi yougu wo
tokubetsunin, yasashiku mask wo nugasete
sarawareta. jiyuu na.
Freedom.

~The song without a melody.