10 things

Gloomyunderwoods on Deviant Art posted this new meme "Childhood beliefs" where you write down 10 things you used to believe as a child.
Hopefully tomorrow or sometime soon I'll illustrate these and post them too :)
I have some cute ideas for them!

Anyway here they are:
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1. I could "scare" traffic lights into changing to green
2. It was possible to grow up to be an animal of some sort (usually a feline).
3. If it was darker in a specific spot than the surrounding area, there was a portal to a seperate dimension hidden there, and if you get too close you'll get pulled in. This portal showed up in my shower during hide-and-seek a LOT.
4. If I closed my eyes, crossed my legs and concentrated hard enough, I could float up/down the stairs.
5. 16 was the absolute best age EVAR. You could drive, were pretty, were in high school and had a boyfriend. Basically, you're a mini-adult PLUS all the fun!
6. All my dolls, stuffed animals and toys would "come to life" when I was not looking, or wasn't around. And if I abused them, they would become sad and despondent.
7. God had a little camera installed in each room, and in the trees outside so he could see you on one of those massive security-camera-screen things you see in the movies.
8. My mom had magic-hands. Once, my leg was absolutely COVERED in ants, and she swiped down my leg, and all the ants disappeared.
9. If you cut a sandwich into triangles, as opposed to squares, the sandwich will taste better.
10. Barney was real. I saw a Barney concert, and though I could see where his head, hands and feet met the main part of his costume, I couldn't find a zipper. I assumed he was wearing protective gear that looked exactly like his hands/feet/head to keep him from getting sick or hurt or something. But...no zipper=real.

A day with Jillian.

"How do you spell Spencer?"

Spell it out.

"Okay..."

Spencer.

"S...?"

SPUH-EN-CER

"Sr?"

PUH. PUH. PUH.

"Sp...r?"

SPUH- EH-EH-EH-EH-N-CER

"Spe...r?"

SPUH-EN-NUH-NUH-NUH-CER

"Specr"

No, there's an N.

"Specr?"

No, there's an N!

"What?"

AN EN.

NUH-NUH--YES! Guh.

"Spensr?"

No, you had the ending right at first.

"Huh?"

No, you had the ending RIGHT at first.

"Spencr?"

No, you need an E before the R.

"What?"

ER.

"Spencr?"

ER.

"R?"

What makes the "ER" sound?

"R?"

But what comes before the R?

"R?"

No....what came before the R the first time you wrote it?

"E?"

Yeah. E-R. ER.

"Okay, so it's Specern?"

GUH!!!!

*facepalm*

--Thus is the life of babysitting a child who refused to read until this year, because she had to for school.

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Of course, this week hasn't been totally horrible.

I mean, we've had fun.
She just got me in a horrible mood this morning because she woke me up after a nightmare...toooo eaarrrlllyyy

Anyway.

Monday: Made finger puppets, lots of activities, 1.5 hours of "school" :O

Tuesday: Made a sun, which is currently on the fridge, more "school"

Wednesday: Made a fan, more encouragement to play by herself

Today: We're going to make bunny ears, and play on the excersize machine and....hopefully more solitary activities for herrrr.

Tomorrow: NO IDEA. DEATH?

Isn't it a fun feeling

When you realize that you and your best friend of nearly four years are drifting apart?

No, it doesn't hurt as much as the day you realized your best friend of 8 years has moved on.

Nor does it hurt as much as the realization that you aren't as cracked up as you thought you were.

No. But it still hurts.

A lot.

I love that she's having fun.

And I love that she has friends other than me...but as the days dwindle by, I've discovered that my 'friendship-circle' is...how can I put this...limited? I've got her...and the people I know through her. And then the few that I know outside of her--the Entertainers and con-kids.

But I haven't gotten the satisfaction of friendship out of most of those kids. I love them, yes. But we will never stay up until 3 am, eating ramen and playing the world's longest game of Mario Carnival (god, 50 rounds was wayyy too long).

I miss that.

I miss us.

And when I see that you've been out having fun with the people I thought of as friends, too...when I wasn't invited...when I'm being "pushed out," as one slightly psycho child said last year ;)

Yeah, it hurts.

I s'pose I'll have to stand on my own two feet now.

I'll make some more friends.

But I don't think I can share the bond we've forged with anyone else...not for a while.

Not until I have another identity crisis at 30 (Teehee)

I mean, honestly? You're what got me through Freshman year.

And most of Sophomore year.

I guess this year was us establishing that we are both independant women.

I'll try to stay here....I'll wait here....

Just don't let what happened to you and your not-best-friend-anymore of 7 years happen to us, okay? (I don't think either of us are psycho enough to do that anymore)

I luff you with two x's, even if I don't get to see you as often.

I luff everyone in the "chill group" even if I'm not invited to the more recent chills.

Even if I've been forgotten within the group.

It's okay.

I'll move on.

I just want you to know that I luff you.
And I miss you guys.

Okay.

Well, that was an emo-esque post if I ever saw one.

I gotta get back to being a happy kid...doing my psych homework (;>.>)

Ja mattane....(sp?)

I've begun a sort of comic...

It's not really a comic in the sense that it is an ongoing story in which each issue furthers the plot along. It's more like..."Here's something random that happened to [insert name here], with a bit of a Tsuki-inspired twist" or "This was inspired by a fluke note." sort of thing.
Some of them may not even be that amusing to people who don't know who I'm talking about in the comics, but for the most part, the other students seem to find them amusing.

Anyway, the point of this post.
I'm working on this comic and have begun a bit of a regular comic-making schedule (1 per week. Script decided on by tuesday, sketch by thursday, inked by saturday) and I hope to find my old flat-bed scanner (I refuse to tear out the papers from my sketchbook) so I can begin posting them regularly on Sundays. :) I even have a Holiday one that, once posted, will be gravely out of season :D

So, yeah. End of update.

Sort of shifting some stuff...

From my cellphone-blog to here (Rather, journal entries saved in the application "notes" I'm putting these in reverse chronological order, so scroll to the bottom of this entry to start at the beginning)

A conversation with Sara via "Notepad"
December 4 6:40 PM

-This is a good place to talk quietly, lol.
-Yay!! Okay, this so cool!!
-Lol, so..you read my comic yet?
-Que comic?
-That's a no XD Hangon, lemme go get it.
There. Tell me what you think
-Haha!! Me likei
-Teehee, 'Tis about Monfries. I'll point his picture out when we get to the hallway laters :3
-Yeah, I have no idea who that is. So funny.
-John has an epic half-smile
-Haha, yeah.

I hate
November 12 10:30 PM

My luck. Opening night is tomorrow.
I've sprained the muscles around my
hip-joint. Life pretty much friggin' sucks.

Kou Kou
November 10 11:09 PM

Is the correct spelling. Rehearsal was
an epic fail composed of six pointless hours.
Grr.

Delete
November 6 11:28 AM

Gages 4, 6
Hacky sacks
Uh...camera thing? Music? Uhmmmm

Life is..
November 6 11:20 AM

Back on track. New hair-new outlook.
Evening of dance rehearsal tonight--I get to drum!! :D
I've finally caught myself up in school--less stress is amazing
Ready, steady never look back.
Ready, steady give me good luck.
Ready, steady, don't hold me back.
Let's get started, Ready Steady Go!!!
(dodo-doo-dodo-dododo! Dodo-doo-dodo-dododo!)

Everything..
October 31 11:01 AM

Turned out fine. :) HAPPY HALLOWEEN
Guess who I am? (Hint: Why So Serious?)

I
October 29, 8:08 AM

Screwed up faster than I thought I would.
Proof I'm an idiot who has no clue how to make
a relationship work. One day, I'll learn to shut
my mouth. Until then, I'll just cry over the
smoldering bits of carbon that remain.

BS
October 28 10:17

The only fitting word for what my 'friends' are dishing.
I'm having anxiety attacks left and right. I need a break.

(12 minutes, post-post)
I'm irrational
I'm emotional
I'm woman
Hate me, we can form a club
Join the fun
and loath.

A note from the failure:
October 26 10:13 PM

I must be wired incorrectly.
I don't understand my own motives nor my actions.
Shouldn't I have control?
I suppose not.
Perhaps I should resume my position in hiding.
No one will believe a thing I say anyway.

Edit: PMS is evil.

A word from Loo
October 24 10:56 AM

My weekend will rock. And today will
be swell. The weather is heavenly and
my friends are made of epic winnage.
I'm a happy kid. Being single isn't hard
at all, plus I have flirting rights.
Niftybats!
*flush*

The infinite to-do list:
October 21 5:38 PM

Current Event, 2 presidential sheets,
Actor's Notebook, Summer Essay fixes,
get self together.

Mambiri mu stafiri kunla mikaro
Sabala alimuna mikaru (x3)

Mode, Mode, mode-ala mode abule

And then I realized..
October 20 10:30 PM

Mum is unhappy. I'll chalk it up to
stress and PMS. Meh. I've school in 8
hours, so a good night's sleep is in order.
Oya~

Speed Racer and the World Championship
October 19 10:37 PM

The game rules. Note to self: watch all
52 episodes in English, then in Japanese,
then buy the movie :D
I've school tomorrow. If it wasn't for
ADE, I'd ask to stay home. Darn my
actual enjoyment of school. Group
chillaxing on Saturday-another reason
to remain in top health. Won't last
long--too many sleepless nights plagued with odd, vivid dreams can cause
sickness. I pray for a chilly day. Sleep is
in order, methinks. Oyasumi.

Oh and..(added 30 minutes after last post)
I am surprised by how excited I am for
this weekend....Davis and Liz are yeses
and Zark and Maddie are maybes

A Comedy of Errors
October 18 10:32 PM

Philisophical conversations are both
rejuivinating and humbling. Especially
when they're held with someone whose
intellect surpasses your won, but is
made obvious only by her thought-out
arguments and understanding of difficult
theories. I love haging a friend who is
willing to talk stuff out when things get
bumpy. It's nice. Refreshing. I suppose
it's silly of me to wonder what makes
me remotely likeable. Hmm..do I really
talk funny? Nifty.

In which I express myself in a confusing manner:
October 17 10:45 PM

Tiriba tires, kuku sweats, sansa
marisan, let's circle up.
College, grow up, facepalm, shallow
middle-class white chick.
Squeak, soprano throat pangs,
Juniors only, epty room, nostalgia and
funny converstaions-He's cool.
Busses, unlucky guy, leave the driver to
rot. Lulz

I have come to realize

That I change my appearance a lot.
It's not because I have a problem with the way I look-naturally or otherwise, but it does make me think...
How do I come off to other people?
I've come up with one of two ways I may come off as to other people:

1. "Interesting"
I've a new hairstyle every two or three weeks (which can vary from a different parting side, to a change in color to a complete new do'), yet I manage to rock each hairstyle. I also change my 'look' every couple of days that I make sure flatter my figure, so it looks like I can rock any sort of clothing 'style' as well. In a sort of self-centered way, I'm an interesting figure to follow. Like a television series, each new episode is (obviously) new and different, but equally, if not more entertaining than the last episode. Except, replace "episode" with "hair/clothing/overall style" :D

2. "Troubled"
I can never settle on one look, which may come off as a desperate attempt to find 'myself' through hairstyles and clothing. I also tend to do the more extreme versions of any 'style' (Example, I had cornrows for a few weeks; I'm white.) which can be a "cry for attention" because, you know, I'm such a tortured soul. It could also be a form of multiple personality disorder trying to unmask itself to be helped. For all I know, there's another side to me named Mindy who absolutely HATES herself and thus influences Mandi subconsciously to change something plainly visible about herself to satisfy the inner Mindy.

Who knows?
I like the first, though :)
I don't like the idea of an inner-Mindy trying to take over me XD

A new song? I think not.

November 30, 2008

(sung to the tune of "Lumberjack" by Monty Python)
I am a nerd-bat, but that's okay
My friends still love me, anyway!
I will continue, to be a geek
'Til I lose the, 'bility to chat-speak!

Inferiority Complex

November 30, 2008

Sometimes, going to an Arts Magnet can really eat away at your self-esteem

And I end up hating how I am constantly being surrounded by so much talent.

Because I end up feeling inferior...
I write something with the knowledge that Maddie could have worded such-and-such much better.

I sing something knowing I could be outsung in a heartbeat by the kid who sits next to me in APUSH.

I sew something knowing that both Andi and Lakyn would subconsciously view it with slight distaste at my lack of skill.

I play something knowing Davis could kick my butt at it.

I memorize a monologue knowing that John could own me.

I dance knowing that Zaikyyah could perform with much more grace.

I photograph something knowing Zark or Hiratai could have figured out a much better angle to set off the setting sun.


But I'll keep trying...practicing...attempting
It just sucks. I feel inferior.

Meh :/

A conversation I had once...

November 22, 2008

Meh.

"I really hate how much our school has changed thanks to the budget and yet every time I express that, someone feels the need to call me an idiot"
"You're not an idiot, it's true. And as much as I disliked W, this new woman is changing a lot of what made our school special."
"Exactly, it sucks balls and all these people are like, 'just cos we're an arts school doesn't make us special' and that's exactly why we're special."
"Agreed. Most newniors, sophomores and freshmen can't grasp that reality, it seems"
"Even the small stuff like eating in class or having lunch anywhere in the building. People
don't seem to realize that contributed to our originality as a whole."
"Exactly. And our 'phone zones'"
"Yes! I couldn't've been the only one pissed when those disappeared. What's next? Hat day?"
"Or hallway-bound scene practicces? 'too loud' pssh"
"Or even cutting fabric in the hall. It was a bigger deal at Nolan Estes but still"
"We've much more space here, obviously. Thank the Lord some of the stronger teachers rebel by letting us eat or use our cells or listen to music during huge lulls in class"
"Yeah. But it sucks that some abide by the rules so closely, and that the rules are even there."
"Moreso that they're even there."
"Yeah. And I don't understand why people just don't get how much it sucks. It's almost opressive"
"The real irksome part is the fact that her "student-meetings" in the mornings have resulted in MORE rules while we continually protest for less"
"She only started that so she could at like we had a say. She's a bit of a dictator."
"She really is."
"She's treating us like any other school. And people say it's because of the budget. Our budget is bigger than most schools."
"Twice as much"
"Ugh."
"Ditto"

Teaching Miyavi to be "gangstah"

August 05, 2008

mandirjs (12:53:36 AM): Kabuki Danshi is like the beginning of Neo Visualism

mandirjs (12:53:45 AM): LOL at his purple jacket

"Tess" (12:53:48 AM): Hah

mandirjs (12:53:56 AM): He's trying to be gangstah, and seriously fails.

"Tess" (12:54:04 AM): xD

"Tess" (12:54:14 AM): We should teach him the gangster ways

mandirjs (12:54:25 AM): YES

"Tess" (12:55:03 AM): Mwahaha! Get your gangster pants on, Tsuki! We're going to TEACH

mandirjs (12:55:04 AM): It makes me want his music more.

mandirjs (12:55:21 AM): "Okay, Miyavi. This is a gangsta walk.

mandirjs (12:55:27 AM): It's almost like a limp. But waay cooler"

"Tess" (12:55:31 AM): XDD

mandirjs (12:55:47 AM): Only miyavi could rock a rap song with an acoustic-electric guitar.

"Tess" (12:55:47 AM): "And this Miyavi, is how you dance"

mandirjs (12:55:48 AM): Dork.

mandirjs (12:55:54 AM): Haha

mandirjs (12:56:18 AM): "And these are known as gangstah pants. YES they are supposed to almost make you trip. It looks cool."

mandirjs (12:56:27 AM): Oh My God

mandirjs (12:56:31 AM): THAT IS A CURTAIN THING

mandirjs (12:56:35 AM): He has a curtain thing on his back.

mandirjs (12:56:37 AM): Oh my god.

mandirjs (12:56:38 AM): Dork.

mandirjs (12:56:40 AM): XD So cute

"Tess" (12:56:42 AM): Ohhh lol

mandirjs (12:56:44 AM): youtube

mandirjs (12:56:46 AM): D:

mandirjs (12:56:54 AM): Those little ties with the tassles? Yeah

mandirjs (12:56:59 AM): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNe9VwkaWKM&feature=related

mandirjs (12:57:05 AM): It looks like mine too. I lol'd

"Tess" (12:57:14 AM): "Also, these pants are supposed to show your butt. No this isn't a trick to see yours Myv, we promise"

mandirjs (12:57:21 AM): *snickers*

mandirjs (12:57:45 AM): "Don't forget your bling! I know it's heavy, but it's to show status. You want to come off knowledgable, don't you?"

"Tess" (12:58:13 AM): XDD

"Tess" (12:58:55 AM): "And you have to lose that silly 90's thing. We're going to be serious gangsters aren't we?

mandirjs (12:59:18 AM): Haha

mandirjs (12:59:31 AM): "Talk with horrible grammar. It's popular, you know."

"Tess" (1:00:09 AM): "You don't know what it is? Well it goes like this; Word homes whass gone down in da hizz?"

mandirjs (1:01:29 AM): Miyavi: "What's a hizz?"

mandirjs (1:01:34 AM): Me: "It's a house silly!"

"Tess" (1:01:37 AM): XD

mandirjs (1:01:41 AM): Miyavi: "Why do I care what's going on in a house?"

mandirjs (1:01:48 AM): "Because it's just something you say
"

"Tess" (1:02:05 AM): "And don't forget to call your women ho;s!"

mandirjs (1:02:13 AM): "OH and be prepared to buy fake, flashy teeth. Or at least get some tin foil!"

"Tess" (1:02:27 AM): "Or gum wrappers!"

mandirjs (1:02:41 AM): "But be careful, if you stick licked gum-wrappers on your head, it will burn"

mandirjs (1:04:24 AM): Anything we're missing?

"Tess" (1:04:29 AM): Hmm

"Tess" (1:04:36 AM): Grab your crotch

mandirjs (1:04:45 AM): And cuss like a sailor

"Tess" (1:04:46 AM): Wome--I mean, Hoes love that

mandirjs (1:05:26 AM): XDD

mandirjs (1:05:28 AM): That's it! *watches Miyavi continues to scribble on notepad*

"Tess" (1:06:19 AM): You're officially gangsta

:D
We successfully taught Miyavi how to be gangsta.
Just check his new stuff!

I am...

August 03, 2008

Scared.

Life is moving way too fast for my taste.
I wish I knew where the pause button was.
I wish I could wake up and be entering the 10th grade again, be 14 again, be..."mature for my age" rather than plain "mature."

I don't think I can handle the responsibilities of being a Junior, much less an adult.

I'm scared.
I don't think I'm ready.
And I don't have any choice in the matter.

Um, what?

July 15, 2008

mandirjs (12:25:41 AM): *twangy accent* "WEEEEE are having baaaaaad days"

"Kisho" (12:26:23 AM): ......

"Kisho" (12:26:27 AM): *runs away*

mandirjs (12:26:28 AM): "aaand it suuuuuuucks"

mandirjs (12:26:34 AM): "But weeeeee'll pull through....."

mandirjs (12:26:40 AM): "Wiiiith our dodge truuuuuucks"

"Kisho" (12:26:53 AM): Don't forget our cowboy hats!

mandirjs (12:27:45 AM): "aaand our ten-gallon haaats"

mandirjs (12:27:51 AM): "will be emptied of our daytime teaaaars:

mandirjs (12:28:05 AM): "Theyyy will be filled with ....chocolate miiilk!"

mandirjs (12:28:11 AM): ...because that rhymes.

"Kisho" (12:28:25 AM): Sure it does!

mandirjs (12:28:27 AM): :D

Utterly Disappointed In Myself

July 27, 2007

Beware, utterly stupid fangirl-esque post going on... bleh

Okay, Bou has been gone since April 30th, the decision was made before that.
I knew that.
I didn't accept it at first, but I have.

Yet, I'm crying.
Why?
I read all of the members' take on his leave.
I can't comprehend the pain they each felt.
Some more than others, of course,
but Bou's last entries were nothing but "Keep smiling, your support keeps me going" and "Your smile is energizing to me, I cannot wait to see your smiles, I will do my best to reach perfection on that stage" etc....I'm amazed at his courage.
And the members' strength,
they all were a family, and just lost a member.
It hurt them so bad, yet they were so courageous, I'm proud of them.

Why am I crying though? It already happened!

Whatever, I've got to stop wallowing in the past...and embrace the future of my beloved bands!
And my own! CROWNx WILL PREVAIL! Hahaha

Honestly, I actually support Yuuki and Takuya, the poor guys have had nothing but sh*t since they joined. Yes, Yuuki isn't the prettiest thing on the planet, but you shouldn't judge his skill based on that.

Many say Yuuki is not needed, but if you listen to all of their old music, nearly every song has keyboard-music in it, they just didn't have a set one. Now, they do.
Give the guy a chance, okay?

And Takuya, he's been accepted a lot faster than Yuuki, probably because he is cute ^^.
I understand why you may dislike him--he's replacing Bou,
but give him, and Yuuki a break.
They're both like, 19! So young!
Don't crush their dreams just yet!

~-~

I'm stopping now.
Byebye, Nyappy